e new me

2010-11-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

it's been another long time since i last updated.
i have ton of thoughts and feelings recently
just that im too busy to blog abt them
sighh,
uni life is really busy
with all those work on hand
and the commitments which i have
i wonder how long can i last
i wonder how long will it be b4 i break down
if i do that is

要怎样活才能开心就好呢？

2010-09-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i last posted again!
hahas
actually i have lots of things to post abt
just that i dun have the time
okie, i know that's not an excuse
lol! =XX

these are the list of events which i wan to post and will post soon i hope
tsk

1) Amber's visit to SG
2) Bintan trip
3) CAC camp
4) Photography camp
5) Chase the 'Shooting Star' trip**
6) Hall 2 Camp

see! such a long list of events!
LOL. XDD

2010-07-18T13:02:00.003+08:00

opps!
there are still ppl reading my blog!!
omtian,
i gotta be careful with what i blogged le
hahahas

last last sun
i had my virgin bake!
and it was so so fun!
hahahas
my first ever self-bake cheesecake
must thank yvonne for the coaching
and preparing of ingredients
not forgetting her mum too,
for helping to wash the dishes
lol. XDD
think i have fallen in love with baking
so much so that i got the urge to get an oven and all those utensils to start learning how to bake
should i?
hmmmm...

and it was also my first time spending so much time doing a card
12hrs!
i dun rmb myself doing a yuzhong's card for so long
lol.
all those outlining and cutting
and outlining and cutting again
but the most time consuming wasnt these 2
it was the wrapping part
lol
i onli had experience wrapping those si si fang fang de textbook
first time wrapping a irregular shape
which explains why i failed the first time
only to catch the grasp
and succeeding the 2nd time
but still,
i spent one whole night wrapping the card
from ard 12am-6am

so to the person that received it
u better like it and appreciate my effort put in it
hahahas!

and and
good news!
2 ppl now are listening to my yuzhong's songs!
and they are even performing them at public
heex
i didnt expect someone wuld perform his songs or use it at a competition outside
but they did
so im very happy for yuzhong!
this shows that talented ppl will always find ppl that appreciate them,
be it sooner or later
^^

so i shall end this post with a song of his
=))

<活到一百岁>

2010-06-28T10:12:00.009+08:00

i'm back!
to revive my blog after 9 mths of ignoring it
hahas
imagine the last post was during my first week of attachment
and it's been 4mths since i ended it
you must have felt lonely, my blog
and i know no one bothers to visit you too
hahas

okie,
here are the major events that happened during the past 9 mths.

Nov
went over to kl for 林先生 release of album
it seems like im going further and further to support him
previous album was my first time going his overseas autograph session which was at jb
now, kl
and i took the coach there alone!
lol
ohh ya,
prior to that
i went to yes 933 event at indoor stadium to catch mayday again!
another night of highness
tsk tsk
and imagine i reached home only @ 2-3am
to pack my bag and get ready to reach jb by 8am
madness!
i still culdnt believe myself that i was actually on the way to kl alone when i was in the coach
but it was definitely a worthwhile trip
cause i manage to take my 2nd he zhao with him
^^

Dec
went to see him again
lol
but this time,
it was a even more meaningful event
his 音乐会 to thank his fans
and it was at genting!
the place which i have been wanting to go
heex XDD
got to go on stage to celebrate his birthday with a pandan cake and a present for him
sweet, funny and unforgetable memory
^^

went to kl yet again to countdown with him
but i missed his rehearsal
argh
catch the midnight bus there yet i missed it just because i went back to the hotel and put my things
stupid me
but at least i countdown with him,
and entered 2010 with him
so 2010 shld be a good year for me!
=DD

spent my first day of 2010 with him also
at his Yes Sir promo
and it was there when i saw his staff using the black box that i gave him
i asked the staff and she denied at first
but later she said dun worry, he received the gift
what exactly did he do to my cap???
hmmmm...
and that was the 2nd time he asked me how did i go there
and the 2nd time i replied by coach
and we even discussed abt how much the airflight cost
tiger airway
lol!

jan & feb
i think nth much happened cause i dun rmb anything special for these 2 mths
except attachment is finally over!
woots!

march
went to science centre and work again
=DD
and,
scc annual concert
finally,
im not in the welfare comm
lol
but i didnt perform this year nor wrote any song
my bei ke is still writing-in process
sighh

april
the long awaited mayday concert is here!
woots!
and is the 1st outdoor one somemore
double woots!!
hahahahas
but but,
i still prefer last year concert
there seems to be sth missing for this one
and they didnt sing a lot of their classic songs
but nevertheless,
it was still as high
and ashin is still as shuai!
and not forgetting the cool fireworks too!
XDD

may
i have officially stepped into the 2
sighh...

and i finally reached june!
=DD

went to find him again
this time even further
at penang
stopby at ipoh and stayed at suehee's hse
must thank her for keeping me if not i will be all alone there
heex
and it feels great to know new frens
^^
anyway,
he bian shuai le!
his hair is finally longer and the hairstylist really did a good job!
the colour suits him too
heex
and he ren also chao hao de
gan dong dao!!
^^
but he seemed to have forgotten me le
and he asked me the same qn for the 3rd time
>.<

opps,
almost forgotten abt scc sports day
hahahas
had fun with soccer and the banana with chocolate syrup! =DD
and did the craziest thing ever so far
to wash my hair in a basketball court
LOL
but the aftermath wasnt that good cause i was having severe muscleache
i want to complain that the warm-up instructor is not good enough!
XDD

okie,
that shld be all the updates to be written down and kept as a fond memory to go through again down the road
=))

as for now,
im part-timing as a admin cum filing @ winnie's office
like the environment and the people here
but definetely not the job scope
lol
imagine i dun file my things when i was in pri till poly
and yet,
here i am doing filing everyday
sighhh...
but let's think of the positive side!
the S with the ll
XDD

2009-09-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

first week of attachment finally passed!
and now
im even more positive that accounting wun be my future career
mon to fri, 8.30 to 6 is reallie killing me
and the sardine train
roar!

went shopping after first day of work
cux the heels was killing me
and i met a kind soul!
she saw me limping in pain
and offered me 2 plasters!
imagine a total stranger being so kind
im seriously touched
if onli the world are filled with all the kind souls
then it will be so much beautiful-er
=))

and more shoppings today and yst
but alone this time
lol
sometimes i like shopping alone
cux i can take my own sweet time to see the stuffs i like
but other times i dun,
cux i got no one to ask for opinion
is just so contradicting

i realised sth
i cant go shopping if im in a bad mood
cux i will end up spending lots of money, getting lots of stuff
hahas
but it is indeed a good way to fa xie
just that the aftermath will be veri xin tong

and i went kbox today!
like finally!
hahas
safra kbox is so cool!
like the touch screen!
XDD
but i didnt manage to sing a lot of songs today
the time seemed to past too fast
shall go again next time!
=DD

2009-09-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

MAYDAY concert was awesome!
it was so high and so fun!
reallie enjoyed myself!!
hahahas!

ashin lyrics are WOW
always full of meaning
and u can always find ur shadow inside
and let the song touch you
how i wish i culd write such lyrics too! =((

and a 3hr plus plus long concert was
WOOTS!
i reallie wonder how they manage to play for so long
and how ashin manage to sing for so so so long
totally respect them now
and i will definetely go to their concert again!

and here's another song which caught my attention
totally agree with the lyrics

2009-08-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

it hurts to see all the efforts you put in just gone down the drain because of one word
thus, i have come to a conclusion
from today onwards,
i will not put in 100% effort in what i do
so that i will not have any expections
and will not fall so hard

i feel like taking the ferris wheel,
alone...

will anyone guide me out of this..?

飛輪海 - 孤單摩天輪

旋轉木馬拼命奔跑　
每一步換一陣熱鬧
雲霄飛車瘋狂轉彎　
聽一聲顫抖的尖叫

我　只是摩天輪
靜靜等著誰來到
當　她降臨懷中　
我的心開始孤單的跳

再一圈　再飛一圈就好　
她無助眼神還沒有依靠
我多想　伸出雙手給她　
一個緊緊擁抱但我做不到

再一圈　再陪陪她就好　
讓我可以揚起她沉重的嘴角
不怕她的眼淚　讓我的心生銹　
遊樂場打烊後誰會知道

排隊的人總那麼多
快樂的人卻這麼少
奇怪是我只想帶她
一起去天空中尋寶

我　如果飛得高　
也許她會笑一笑
可我　拼了命向上　
結果卻慢慢的往下掉

再一圈　再飛一圈就好　
她無助眼神還沒有依靠
我多想　伸出雙手給她　
一個緊緊擁抱但我做不到

再一圈　再陪陪她就好　
讓我可以揚起她沉重的嘴角
不怕她的眼淚　讓我的心生銹　
遊樂場打烊後誰會知道

再一圈　再飛一圈就好　
她寂寞手心在等誰打擾
我寧願　
交換所有給她一個緊緊擁抱　
哪怕就一秒

再一圈　再陪陪她就好　
讓我可以記得她頭髮的味道
就算我走不到　她的天涯海角　
這瞬間已足夠天荒地老

2009-08-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

zhai nv is not zhai at all this week
cux she just watched 3 movies within 5days!
LOL

Hangover on 2/8
G.I.Joe on 6/8
Up on 7/8

which means she spent a lot this week
not forgetting the number of times she chiong cab to sch
omtian!
=((

and she ate @ billy bombers and ben & jerry
for the FIRST TIME
not forgetting swensens too during may
yum yum! =DD

here's a little update of her
she FINALLY got her BLACK FRAME SPECS!
one which she had LONGED for
and she's LOVING IT!! ^^
(P.S: u can go to facebook and view her photos to see her new loved)

to end this post
here's a song which she's recently addicted to
another emo song

TANK-如果我變成回憶

累了
照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着
呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏
都难掌握

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你
人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己
如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天
你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以
让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你
人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己
如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天
你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以
让他陪你

如果我变成回忆
最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里
每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你
痛苦承受失去
这样不公平
请你尽力
把我忘记

2009-07-20T13:32:00.003+08:00

The MV is finally out!
The MV of the song i am recently addicted to
addicted until the fact that i will listen to it every single day
is really a nice song
.
..
...
but is a gay song!
omtian!
it's until the release of the MV
then i realised that
>.<

but nevertheless,
i still LOVE the song
=))

Z-Chen張智成-暗戀

四目交接的时候不要停留太久
适可而止的问候关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞也不能对你说

啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
甚麽会多一些甚麽会少一些

就让别人去猜测我们清白的很
就让自己去承受那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友能不能有要求
如果会发生甚麽也是我想太多

啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口微笑中藏著难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
甚麽会被消灭甚麽才会复原

那是我的底线继续将你暗恋

2009-07-11T20:27:00.003+08:00

there are so many things which i wanted to blog abt
but i jux dun have e time for it
or rather,
i have lost the interest in regular blogging

here are some of the events which i wanted to blog abt
1) bdae bash
2) ZChen Campus Concert
3) Wedding dinners
4) BBQ
5) Heeren Event
6) SCC Sports day
7) Malaysia Trip
8) 19th Birthday Celebrations
And last but not least,
my new blue T707
tsk tsk

so many photos are waiting to be upload but i just dun have e mood to
and now,
i shall end this post with a song

可不可以愛我 - 盧學叡

2009-07-05T00:26:00.002+08:00

100th day
time really flies

i dunno wat to say
all i know is that everyone in the hse had been spoilt by you
esp me...
my toothbrush has grown the green green thing
my cup has more and more black spots at the bottom
my bag is getting dirtier and dirtier
and it's been a long time since my pikachu and gougou last took a bath
all i culd say is i was too pampered by you throughout the 18plus years

i have another soft spot now
which is towards old lady
whenever i see one
tears will just start to gather inside my eyes

on the outside i may have seem gotten over it
but in the inside
nobody knows,
not even me...

2009-06-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

actually i've been thinking a lot for the past few days
or even the past few weeks

i admit i am one veri forgetful person
i tend to forget things easily
i can put my handphone on my lap and just stand up the next moment forgetting that it was there

forgetful
sometimes it can be a good thing
while other times, not

like now
i think the pain has faded
cux im starting to forget how the days are like previously
how it was like when u opened the door every morning to check if im awake
how it was like when u ask me wat spread i want for my bread and get it rdy on the table after i finish bathing
how it was like when u pass me money and ask me to go eat sth special everytime on my bdae
all those little things which i have been experiencing for e past 18plus years are starting to fade off

wat am i suppose to do or can do now to stop myself from being so forgetful..?

2009-06-19T17:48:00.002+08:00

this shall be a reflecting post
one which i didnt post for a veri long time le

ever watch b4 fullmental alchemist?
it used to air on chnl u every sat
and everytime at the beginning of the show
there will be a narration on the principle of equivalent trade
"Nothing gained is without sacrificing something of equal value"
in other words,
to obtain sth, another thing of equal value must be sacrifice

i finally know and understand the meaning now
one cannot be so greedy and just keep wanting sth
in order to gain that sth,
another thing of equal value will be lost

i lost one impt person in my life and a fren whom i trusted
and what do i gained back in return..?
two friendships which i once treasured most but failed to hold on to

i supposed this is wat equivalent trade means..?
losing two and getting two back

2009-06-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

someone said my blog is dead
and that i shld write some crap
since im free
but im not
cux im practicing guitar now
so i shall not continue with my crap
=DD

2009-06-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

Huiyi is feeling very happy now
because of a super chio necklace

2009-05-21T23:07:00.006+08:00

Nathaniel Ho

a picture says it all.. =))

when ur feelings reached the bottom,
a small, simple happiness will cheer u up easily
and significantly
esp when there's a handsome guy
heex

went to help YL as AP during the nonya drama
someday,
i wished i wuld be e one controlling the camera instead

and
Happy Birthday to me
im another year older
but dozen of years matured

2009-05-14T10:23:00.002+08:00

49 days have passed

49 days of vegetarian
49 days of blue,black,white
49 days of life without you
49 days of missing

49 days of pain
and this will carry on...

2009-05-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

it's nice if someone sings u this song when u're feelin down and alone

掌声响起全世界也让我拥有
灯光熄灭却是无尽的没落
环顾身边所有人都在我左右
而这种感觉能够继续多久

眼前出现一个巨大的浪头
挺不住的向后退
站不住的被卷走
谁是真正的朋友

当一切经过
还跟着你的是我
当你觉得什么都没有
别忘记我的心放在你手中

当泪水流过
还陪着你的是我
当所有人都转过头
别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后

掌声响起全世界也让我拥有
灯光熄灭却是无尽的没落
环顾身边所有人都在我左右
而这种感觉能够继续多久

眼前出现一个巨大的浪头
挺不住的向后退
站不住的被卷走
谁是真正的朋友

当一切经过
还跟着你的是我
当你觉得什么都没有
别忘记我的心放在你手中

当泪水流过
还陪着你的是我当所有人都转过头
别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后

当一切
当一切经过
还跟着你的是我
当你觉得什么都没有
别忘记我的心放在你手中

当泪水流过
还陪着你的是我
当所有人都转过头
别忘记有我会挺你一直到最后

2009-05-10T20:46:00.002+08:00

i think i've found out the reason
which is i dun show/express my concerns easily

even though i care abt someone,
i will jux keep it inside my heart
i wun approach e person and stretch out my hand
instead,
i will jux pay attention to that someone frm a distance
see wat i can do from afar

perhaps that's e worst weakness abt me
and that's why im always losing my friends
cux im giving them the feeling that i dun care abt them
is always them the first to start a conversation or approach me
those that didnt make e effort,
neither will i make the first step
that's why e dist drifted over time

to everyone that has entered my life,
i know who you are and i thank you for coming in
for those who have left,
i know who you are also
and will always remember you cause u have left ur footprints behind...

2009-04-30T09:57:00.002+08:00

i wun make the same mistake again..

i wun fully trust a person again
so much so that i will pour my heart to him/her
cux in the end,
the one getting hurt will be
.
..
ME

2009-04-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

倔强之后，寂寞之前，擦掉眼泪，告诉自己，一个人就好

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好
爱说退就退潮
我松开手回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好
一个人就好

有时真的，
一个人就好。。。

2009-04-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

im not as strong as wat i appeared to be

i 'lost' a friend
now,
i lost my granny
who else am i going to lose next..?

im tired
both mentally and physically
i need some warmth in e flat im staying
i dun feel like keeping to e promise anymore

2009-04-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

i once said b4
i dun wan and will not change
cux i find it scary how ppl changes over time
but actually deep inside,
i know im changing as well

im becoming more and more protective of myself
im wearing more and more 'masks'
so that i wun let anyone understand me
nor give them a chance to hurt me

but actually,
these masks are wearing me off
sometimes,
i dun even understand myself

2009-04-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel lost
lost abt family
lost abt friends
lost abt life
lost abt anything and everything

but there's jux this one promise to him which i have to keep
and will be keeping it forever

because i once said
'Promises are not meant to be broken'

2009-04-13T11:55:00.002+08:00

izzit because im thinking too much in the day
or because my missing have increased ever since
that i dreamt of u for 2 nights

i cant rmb wat i dreamt last nite
shld be sth unpleasant
that's why i forgotten all abt it
but i rmb e previous night's dream

the setting wasnt in somewhere white
nor somewhere black/red
it was in our hse

u were still sitting on the sofa
e same expression like before
but suddenly,
ur left hand started moving
brother and me were standing at a dist
stunned
and the next thing i know,
u were back to normal
u culd start walking and moving ard again
u went back to ur rm
and i dunno why there's a new sofa in there
u sitted down and started talking
while brother and i were sitting on e floor listening
i dun rmb e conversation
i onli know we had a fun time then

and my alarm went off
grr~
why izzit so that i cant finish any dream..?
wasnt feeling happy
so i went back to slp again
trying to continue the dream
but the next dream i have
we were at e funeral alrdy

is this wat we often call 回光返照？
does anyone knows decipher dreams..?
i wanna know e meaning of my dream

2009-04-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

let's be happy and smile for once

范逸臣 - 無樂不作

2009-04-05T12:18:00.002+08:00

why is it that when ppl leave,
the things that belonged to them have to go as well..?

mother and father are throwing away granny's bed now
including her pillow and blanket
i wished i culd keep granny's blanket
cux she made it herself
u know how old ppl use 100 small pieces of different cloths and sew tgt to become a blanket..?
yea, granny did that
and she often used to tell me how comfortable is it
how well it culd keep her warm in the night

i wan to keep it
cux it's granny's hardwork
i even wan to use it
so that i can feel granny's warmth in the middle of the night

i dun dare to take a last look at it when it's being thrown
cux im afraid i wun be able to control my tears

世界另一边

2009-04-05T00:16:00.001+08:00

kind of disappointed
cux u didnt come back last nite...

it's e 9th day u left
and i've been telling myself all this while that i shld be happy for u
cux it's a freedom to u
at least u wun have to endure e pain anymore
it hurts to hear u moan whenever daddy carries u
it hurts to see dried skin all over ur body
and it hurts to see ur appetite dropping day by day

i hope u will be fine living on the other side of the world...

2009-04-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

yst was 初七
and i supposed u did come back
cux brother said e calliflower drop out from the lunch box
e spoon and e sweets were moved

i had a tough time falling aslp last nite
kept flipping and tossing from 10.30 to almost 12
brother said he saw a moth in ur room last nite
and now,
there's a small moth in the kitchen

auntie said u might sneak back again tonight
so we placed some food that u like on e table
i know u will come back
cux u missed us too
pls try to eat more this time

and today is my day 5 of missing u...

2009-04-01T16:24:00.002+08:00

i cried myself to slp again last nite
it's e 3rd day without you
and im still not used to it

yst,
i was telling my fren how pity it was that i culdnt inherit ur cooking skills
i used to wander ard in the kitchen when u're cooking
trying to see if i can help out in anything and learn sth frm u
but u nvr fail to chase me out
cux i was still young at that time
but when i finally grew up,
u stopped cooking le
now,
i culd onli miss those dishes u once cooked
though it was simple home-cooked meals
it wuld always be the most delicious dishes i have eaten

i cant stop thinking of u whenever i see ur photo
u were smiling happily in it
brother says is becux during that time u were happy that u are going to be discharge soon
but i dun see that smile on u when u were at home
are u reallie happy staying in this hse..?

i still rmb ur last look lying on the bed
ur right eye was still open
i asked brother why didnt father close ur eye b4 they carry u away
he replied that father did
but u wuldnt close ur eyes
perhaps u culdnt bear to leave us too

it was abt a week ago b4 u left when i saw a moth in ur room
did grandpa come and look for u..?
brother said he saw a moth in the bathroom e morning u left
uncle and auntie said they saw a moth at the wake at 6am for the next 2 days
i know u missed us
so do i
i hope i can see u again
e monk said u wuld be back during one of these 49 days
i dunno which day it wuld be
but i hope i wun miss the chance again to see you...

2009-03-29T21:27:00.003+08:00

27/3
02:08
R.I.P

didnt expect this day to come so fast
but it still did
all this while i have been telling myself to slowly let go
the doctor told us not to have high hope
and i knew that this day wuld come sooner or later
but i still wasnt fully prepared for it yet

my heart feels empty now
afterall, we have been living tgt for 18plus year
tonight is the first night without u
and i dun like the feeling

all the memories now wuld be kept in my mind
and u will forever live in my heart
cux my family will always consist of 5 ppl
father, mother, brother, me
and last but not least
you, my granny...

2009-03-22T19:15:00.002+08:00

i hate myself
i hate myself for being such a coward
i hate myself to be scare of sth called balloon

e onli memory i have of myself playing balloon was veri young
i still rmbed it was a macdonal balloon frm ginza
it was rolling freely on e floor when it suddenly hit e chair and burst
that was e last time i played balloon ever since
up till ndp
when i master my courage to have contact with balloons again
but now,
i would cover my ears and walk away as fast as possible when i see a balloon
i dun like e sight of it at all

if onli the burst of e balloon could be softer or silent
perhaps i wun be so scare of it then
argh!
i hate myself!
useless coward!

2009-03-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

方炯鑌壞人

那一扇車門關出我們的裂痕
一聲就震斷了回頭的路程

愛無法均分以後就留給你們
也許用傷害結束愛才更動人

容忍的人其實並不笨只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人也是個壞人
對我坦誠只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人也是個壞人
分得夠狠你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛一點不剩
也不忍看戀人愛成路人

容忍的人其實並不笨只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人也是個壞人
對我坦誠只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人也是個壞人
分得夠狠你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛一點不剩
也不忍看戀人愛成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是個壞人
對我坦誠只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人也是個壞人
分得夠狠你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛一點不剩
也不忍看戀人愛成路人

歌詞解釋

女生跟男生坦誠說自己愛上了別人
因爲坦誠,也不想傷害男生 = 所以是好人
但坦誠是爲了要奔向新戀人=所以是壞人

男生還愛著女生
對女生耍狠是因爲知道女生想離開
卻做不了決定,開不了口
所以耍狠來讓事情有個結束
狠得像個壞人 = 壞人
卻是爲了對方好 = 好人

2009-03-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

i dun cry for no reasons

i cry for 4 reasons
1. when i got betrayed by a fren
2. when i felt hurt, reallie hurt
3. when i think abt my granny
4. when i watch a scene with someone die-ing

i emo is cause i feel sad
i dun hide my feelings
i show them out as what they are

u said i behave like a drama
then why doesnt my 'drama' has a happy ending
they often say u will have happiness if u got e courage to acheive it
i picked up my courage to talk to u
hoping we wuld get back to e past
when everything was going on fine
but wat do i get in e end..?
i onli got ur cold replies
and ur rejections

i got it
i understand wat u mean
i wun let others worry abt me anymore
from now onwards,
i will kip smiling in front of others
be it whether im happy or not
i will jux kip on putting a 'mask'
i will not shed a tears in front of others
nor emo too
unless when im alone
so to all others,
if u all ever see me emo or cry
give me a slap
or maybe jux a scolding will do
to remind me of wat i said today
as of 11/3/09 11.29pm..

2009-03-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

SCC Concert is over!
finally!
to onli have a week to prepare for concert afta a cui-ed exam
CUI~~
lolz
i crashed 3 times
and i forget e fill-in parts
sighh~
i reallie need a lot of practices in my drumming
and i still got a lot to learn too

like my hair that day
is super duper nice
but my make-up looks a bit like yao nv like that
=XX

photos shall be uploaded when i feel like it...

i dropped my camera... T.T

2009-03-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

it hurts
to feel that one's concern is not needed
it reallie hurts...

and i dun wan to be sick!
sore throat leave me as far as possible!
i wan to eat my carrot cake!
T.T

2009-03-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

五月天 - 時光機

那阳光碎裂在熟悉场景好安静
一个人能背多少的往事真不轻
谁的笑谁的温暖的手心我著迷
伤痕好像都变成了曾经

全剧终看见满场空座椅灯亮起
这故事好像真实又象虚幻的情境
只是那好不容易被说服的自己
藉口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭

好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机

对不起独自回荡在空气没人听
最后又是孤单到天明

真的痛总是来的很轻盈没声音
从背后慢慢缓缓抱著我就像你
你和我还有很多的地方还没去
为何留我荒唐的坐在这里

好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机

对不起独自回荡在空气没人听
最后又是孤单到天明
(最后又是孤单到天明)

2009-02-28T01:37:00.003+08:00

i think im onli good at making frens
but not good at keeping them
if not,
why do all my frens drift away as time pass by..?

im not someone that's good at words
but i valued them a lot in my heart
it reallie hurts a lot when one by one betrayed me
or hurt me
so much so that i feel im locking myself inside my own world
and not opening up to others
all the talks that im having with ppl now are jux mainly surface talk
one that jux touches certain topic but nvr read much into it

im protecting myself now
from all the hurts that i've received
im cutting down on my conversations now
so that u all wun understand me
nor have a chance to hurt me

i thought of using this holiday to shorten e drifts i have
but a thought will always be a thought
right now,
i jux feel like being 爱就宅一起 de 陈默默
当个容易被遗忘的人
(be someone that is easily forgotten)

2009-02-28T01:29:00.002+08:00

exam is finally over
that's one thing to be happy abt
but on the other hand
this is e first time i feel so not confident abt passing them
all that saying of want to do well and improve my gpa
are jux nth during e study period
im jux not in the mood to study this sem
i dunno why
kept getting distracted and stuffs
sighh~

anyway,
i met a granny on bus on wed
who calls herself huai dan popo
she gave me 3 sweets
which are still inside my pants' pocket
=XX
she's 71 and she reminds me of my granny
though she has white hair all over her head
but she's still able to travel by bus
walk ard and communicate with others
unlike mine now
sometimes
i reallie wished that time wuld turn back round
to the time when my granny is still healthy moving ard in e hse
i wuld rather she come in my room now and then to look thru my stuffs
than to see her sitting on e sofa everyday with that 'no-expression' face

2009-02-18T20:54:00.001+08:00

fell in love with them recently after their latest album...

五月天-擁抱

脱下长日的假面
奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜
换上童话的玻璃鞋
让我享受这感觉
我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味
纷乱世界的不了解
昨天太近明天太远
默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽荷花叶
任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美
月光晒干眼泪
那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我
喔爱~~~别走

隐藏自己的疲倦
表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野
找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言
就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借
就算那爱已如潮水

2009-02-17T03:11:00.003+08:00

i feel like an idiot
or e stupidest person in the world..

why do i always make decisions that i will regret in the end..?
i know that i wun be able to let it go from the start
yet,
i still choose to end it
why am i such a fool..?
if i could be that much smarter,
perhaps i wun be going thru e pain im having now..

e past seems so near yet so far
all e memories are jux haunting me
and the msn chat logs
they are simply sinking me further into e whirlpool

why cant we return back to e past..?
why cant we be like normal frens..?
why cant u talk to me again..?
or even jux nudge me on e msn saying hi..?

2009-02-05T01:25:00.003+08:00

Danson 唐禹哲 - 新歌 (xin ge)

最近我学会唱一首歌
一首我心裏的歌
低音是无奈的喃喃着
也听不到泪掉着

最近我最爱唱一首歌
一首可能你也爱的歌
副歌的情绪在高高的悬崖等
等待大雨疯狂了

我们都容易对号入座一首歌
反复让歌词深深呼应着
可能不同看不看开的执着
可能太痛有些画面某合

我们也容易忘记旧歌学新歌
受过伤还是有爱的资格
在每段难得的起承
我们的转合

唱一首歌我最懂的心歌

最近我最爱唱一首歌
一首可能你也爱的歌
副歌的情绪在高高的悬崖等
等待大雨疯狂了

我们都容易对号入座一首歌
反复让歌词深深呼应着
可能不同看不看开的执着
可能太痛有些画面某合

我们也容易忘记旧歌学新歌
受过伤还是有爱的资格
在每段难得的起承
酝酿我们的转合

唱一首歌我最懂的心歌

and the song im 对号入座-ing now is

唐禹哲 - 告訴我

一个人走一走街灯下的路口
握不紧的双手

不知怎么形容已被你击退的我
不知道该往哪躲
想不到挽留的借口

面对面跟我说你已经不爱我
承诺全部没收

让我忘了所有一个人重新来过
你怎么那么从容
怎么都等不及我回头

狠心的话全都讲完
剩下的路各走一半
也许我真的不够勇敢
毕竟相爱一场有太多片段

告诉我怎么能忘记你的笑容
告诉我怎么做才是普通朋友
假如你用心守候
不会是这个结果
你说的我都懂
我却不能够就这样放手

告诉我悲伤的时候会想起我
告诉我你舍得让我独自漂泊
有些话说不出口
害怕又犯下了错
分手还没有说泪就先流

2009-02-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

i've decided not to go for OIAP
simply because of my brother

initially,
i was having a hard time making a decision
there are jux somethings which i cant leave here for 6 mths
esp my granny
she's my greatest worry
brother is right
my granny is onli left with her body now
her mind and soul are like gone and entering her body once in a while
right now,
the onli qns she asked me everyday is whether i've eaten anot
it reallie pains my heart
that's e qn she used to ask me everytime when i come home
and she wuld always cook instand noodles for me if my answer is no

anyway,
back to topic
wat my brother told me is correct
e family is not like a family now
granny is alrdy half-gone
father ignts
mother is another worry
and he've walked 6 yrs longer than me
that's why he's sharing his experience with me so that i wuld be better than him next time when i grow up

and because of this,
i've decided not to go for OIAP
i've decided to listen to whatever my brother says
cause he's e only one i can ask for advice now in this family.

2009-01-28T02:42:00.001+08:00

saw this
and did it

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-01-27T18:50:00.004+08:00

it's chinese new year
and i shall blog abt sth happy for once
=))

i love shopping
but i dislike window shopping

i like shopping when i have sth in mind
and i knew wat i wan to get
and the feeling of finally getting e thing i one
is fantastic
reallie like that feeling

but i dun like shopping aimlessly
jux walking here and walking there
seeing if there's any thing i like or suits me
and stopping when i found one
i dun like that

and yes,
i manage to get a lot of things i like during this new year shopping!
whee~!
but i overspend my budget.. T.T

i flooded myself with a lot of musical note stuffs
bag, shirt, jacket
hahahhaas
it's a musical note year for me!
=DD

in addition,
i oso bought my favourite studded belt and metal chain belt which u hang at e sides of e jeans
whoo~
im so in loved with these 2 things lately!

新年到 - JJ 林俊傑x 林宇中x BY2 x 群星

歌手 :

JJ林俊傑 Rynn林宇中李志清 BY2 Wil黃威尔 Phoebe菲比黃啟銘湯小康曾若冰 CHIN 滿江紅陳澤耀

歌詞 :

一年四季　到了歲末　又是新氣息
二話不說　轻轻抱拳　說一聲恭喜
三羊開泰　縱橫四海　五路財神運財來
六六大順　七星高照　八方都安泰

新年到　迎春花開　新春大家樂開懷
新年到　好運氣來　好的事情會排隊來
新年到　一切自在　今後都笑口常開

一年四季　到了歲末　又是新氣息
二話不說　轻轻抱拳　說一聲恭喜
三羊開泰　縱橫四海　五路財神運財來
六六大順　七星高照　八方都安泰

新年到　迎春花開　新春大家樂開懷
新年到　好運氣來　好的事情會排隊來
新年到　一切自在　今後都笑口常開

新年到　迎春花開　新春大家樂開懷
新年到　好運氣來　好的事情會排隊來
新年到　一切自在　今後都笑口常開

2009-01-21T02:04:00.001+08:00

take a knife and stab me in my heart
once again,
i lost e meaning in life

五月天你不是真正的快樂

人群中哭著你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢或痛或心動了
你已經決定了你已經決定了

你靜靜忍著緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜就是越傷人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割

你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這世界笑了於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇
於是妳含著眼淚飄飄盪盪跌跌撞撞的走著

你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻重新開始活著

2009-01-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

i dun think i will be blogging abt my life here anymore
instead,
i will be posting songs which reflect my current feelings now...

羅志祥 - 搞笑

那一條牙膏在對我傻笑
嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡想鬧就鬧
好快樂少了人嘮叨

藍色的碗盤多買了一套
我忘了沒有人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麼熬
這麼多年早就習慣有妳的撒嬌
我想我能熬但是至少要讓我知道
妳好不好

我們的小狗食量變好小
眼神裡常常顯的無聊
他習慣睡覺的床位少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
我在搞笑卻在最後眼淚拼命掉
妳的離開失去多少我計算不了
忙完了一天　突然覺得又何必辛勞
對誰炫耀
還在搞笑是否擁有麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌卻避不開催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧希望聽到有人會提到你好不好

2009-01-13T00:22:00.001+08:00

~~everything will not be e same again...~~

2009-01-11T01:57:00.003+08:00

i rmb i once read this story somewhere
but i forgot where le
and it somehow goes like this
* after typing almost half e story, i decided to try my luck at e internet.. -.-
and here goes...

There was once a little boy who had a bad temper.
His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper,
he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks,
as he learned to control his anger,
the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down.
He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn’t lose his temper at all.

He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, “You have done well, my son,
but look at the holes in the fence.
The fence will never be the same.
When you say things in anger,
they leave a scar just like this one.
You can put a knife in a man and draw it out.
But It won’t matter how many times you say I’m sorry,
the wound will still be there.
A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.
Remember that true friends are very rare jewels, indeed.
They make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear,
they share words of praise
and they always want to open their hearts to us.”

2009-01-03T09:14:00.001+08:00

人格特质十八问

“你是个创意十足，又爱做梦的人。亲切、敏感的你，不爱与人争执。平和而安全的环境，有助于你的自我发展。平时，你喜欢沉浸于你自己的内心世界里，常做白日梦。创意十足的你，在工作需要时，可以排除万难，全心投入，直到完成计划。爱情方面，你是个无可救药的浪漫主义者。面对心爱的人，付出一切都在所不惜。现代罗密欧或朱丽叶，非你莫属！”

精神年齡鑑定 - http://www.mathsking.net/test/think.htm

鑑定結果您的精神年齡23歲
與您實際年齡差5歲
幼稚度60％
成熟度61％
老化度17％

2008-12-31T16:18:00.003+08:00

it's the last day of 2008
and i chose to spent this day at home
being a 干物女

i was supposed to go out
but in e end,
i declined both e dates
e mood of new year approaching is jux not coming to me yet
i dun sense e welcome-ness of 2009

if my home feels like a home,
or i have e chance to live alone
i think i wuld have been a 干物女 by now
i wuld stay at home all day long
doing my own things
cutting contacts from e outside world
that's how a 干物女 suppose to live right..?

if i were to reach my 20s
and hold a stable job
i think i wuld move out eventually
renting probably a 2/3 rooms flat
and having a doggie as company
that wuld be nice

anyway,
for 2008
there has been ups and downs
more downs i suppose..?
tried staying 'up' as long as possible
but e gravity is too strong for me to go against
and now,
is to year 2009
and 属马的人 fan tai sui again
sighh~
nth's been good ever since i entered poly
why cant my life be peaceful..?
and avoided from all those 'hurts'

2008-12-31T16:13:00.002+08:00

twilight is nice
yea, is veri nice

except i think a lot of parts are being cut out..?
cause e development is too fast
coparing e thickness of e book
i dunno
that's just my thought

and e male lead is indeed veri charming
e vampire
imagine if u culd also run veri fast
climb e trees
enjoy e sceneries
that's wuld be so enchanting...

2008-12-30T02:18:00.002+08:00

25th dec

as usual went to cousin's hse for christmas
but this time,
no turkey
T.T
and it was boring
didnt have e mood to play mahjong this time round
so i stayed in my cousin's room
and watch Tantei Gakuen Q Live Action again
still find Yamada Ryosuke cute
heex

afta that,
went to JP with Angeline
new JP reallie is big
and i saw e 2 accessories which i fancies now in a shop
铆钉belt and e chain belt which u hook from e front to e back
so nice
heex

met my laopo afta she end her work
and chatted for a veri long time

26th dec
went back to clubhse to practice gu li ni de ge
and we all reallie cui-ed
hahas
afta that,
wenta find hui2 and heng to fly kite
yea, fly kite is fun
when u get e kite flying high up in e sky
heex
but e most funny part is one of e kite tio stuck at e roof top
and a long story afta that
spent a long time trying to untangle e knot in e strings
then we trace e string to the HDB estate
and knock onto one of the flat
going into their house to retrive e string
i think they muz be thinking wat kind of weirdos are we
hahas
and this e first time i've done such a ridiculous thing
but luckily,
they are a nice family
heex

wenta imm buy christmas prezzie afta that
wanted to buy e same things for all e xues
but due to budget restrain
had a diff plan instead
heex

27th dec

2nd audition
and once again,
cui-ed...
and it was oso shinru's bdae
wenta buy cake and prepare fer e celebration
and we took 19 candles instead
was thinking of 整ing shinru de
ended up i was e one suffering cuz i gotta light 19 candles

went alumni for dinner
and we order-ed those little dishes again
it was delicious
e omelette and e mayo-fish
yum yum

28th dec

went back sch to play badminton
it's been a long time since i last played
had funs and laughters

ate at hk cafe
e dumpling soup was nice
this is e first time afta so long i drank a bowl of soup
plus e prawn in e dumpling
was so crunchy
tried curry baked rice this time
and there was bits of eggie in the rice
which taste awesome

29th dec

his bdae
yep yep,
his 30th bdae
hope he had enjoyed his day

had a last min outing
pri sch mini gathering
and it was so awkward
cause they were in their own world
and didnt even bother bringing us in
if there's gonna be a gathering again,
i think i wun go for it le
dun wan to feel so awkward again
plus,
i missed my dian ge because of it
didnt manage to listen to it
sighh~

2008-12-24T18:20:00.003+08:00

granny's home
at last

but i dunno if it's a good thing
for her and for us
now that her 3 meals depend on us,
how are we going to find mashed food for her..?
everything gotta be mashed
rice, meat and veggie
sighh~

and it seems that my family is in a bad luck now
first, it was me
next, it was my bro who sprained his knee when jogging
then, it was my granny who had a fever that nite
and now, my mother slipped and fell

i dunno how long this rotten luck will stick to my family
i jux hope it will go away soon
real soon...

2008-12-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

im sick
or rather,
my gastric is sick
it got a flu

so now,
my appetite will become bad
which is a good thing to me..?
hahas
cause i can onli eat those light-seasoned food

and secondly,
im on my way to become a loner
cuz e doc sae the disease will spread
and those in contact with me hafta wash their hands
which means i hafta qurantine myself

yea,
so shld i be happy that im sick..?

2008-12-18T18:27:00.001+08:00

i jux wan to return to e past
when we were still frens
when we can still go out tgt for a simple meals or wat
that's the memories i missed most...

2008-12-18T00:37:00.002+08:00

changed my blogskin
at last
yes, finally
i noe wat u guys are thinking now
hahas

frankly speaking,
i missed e previous one
it has been wif me since dunno how long
and that was definitely my fav skin so far
too bad,
it wasnt firefox-friendly
if not i wuld have used it foreverrrrrrrrrrrr
wahahahahas

anyway,
search fer an hr b4 i found this skin
based on the theme, in the rain
why in the rain..?
cuz it's 林宇中（淋雨中）
hahahahahas
XDD

2008-12-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

before anyone has anymore misunderstandings regarding my previous posts,
i think is time for me to explain e things behind it

e previous few posts
are for someone that has lived 18 years wif me
ever since i was born
someone that once cooked wonderful home-cooked meals for me when i was young
someone that does all e household chores everyday
someone that is so concerned
someone that kept feeding me with food even though i said im full
someone that matters a lot to me

and i regret
regret doing e things which i shld nt have done
regret not appreciating her in the hse

如果说了后悔
是不是一切就能倒退。。。

2008-12-15T01:12:00.003+08:00

yeah!
CT is over!
and is offically holiday time!

and e best reward afta my CT..?
to see my ai ren!
heex
yup yup
so wenta find him
cause bu gan xin
bu gan xin that he didnt sing yuan yuan in SG
and it was indeed a fruitful trip!
=))

but i dun seem to hear e chirstmas bells nearing anymore...
with all e sad things happening afta one another
it seems to me e longer e frenship,
e easier it is to be broken

hopefully e happiness i get from yst can last me long
long enuff to cover e sadness in me...

2008-12-09T15:54:00.002+08:00

e song which depicts my feelings now
esp e bold part

自我催眠
人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手

我猜不透不猜透和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有没有爱情的天分你才要走

我想要学会自我催眠痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想著想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠却回不到从前

等著红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执著在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留著却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了

我不会说不想说怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默只是掩饰著心痛我的难过

我想要学会自我催眠痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想著想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠却回不到从前

我想要学会自我催眠聪明在多一些
潜意识作祟想著想到失眠
我走在没有你的世界却走不到永远
我渐渐的自我催眠慢慢闭上双眼

why must one have regrets before knowing to treasure...

2008-11-30T14:28:00.001+08:00

if it hurts so much for u to hold on,
then i wuld rather let u go now
then to see u go thru all e sufferings...

2008-11-30T13:53:00.002+08:00

as hui2 had said
this week will be my suay week
and yes,
it had been my suay-est week

firstly,
sth bad happen
which i dun wish to mention

secondly,
e lightbulb in my room and living room was spoilt

thirdly,
my hp charger is spoilt

last but not least,
i met a strange uncle on friday

was Q-ing up at e bus 282 when there was an uncle in front of me
then e bus came
i dunno wat he was doing
but he was sort of like mumbling
then e bus came
and he didnt move
so i tap him and said e bus is here
then he gave me a strange look
and tried to hold my arms
so i quickly walk past him and board e bus
and yea,
it happen as what u all are thinking now
he board e bus
and walk towards me
as i was praying he wuld juz ignored me
then he wanted to sit beside me
lucky i put my bag there
if not sure gone case
so i told him there's other seats
and he can sit there
and he chose to sit behind me
=.=

throughout e journey,
he tried toking to me
but i ignored
listening to my hp
it was until when he tap my shoulders
then i culdnt tahan
and stared him back
and he said he want to shake my hand
i juz snapped back
no, i dun wan
and again,
i said i dun wan

but wat makes me angry e most was e passengers on board e bus knew wat was going on all this long
when we first board e bus until i alight
yet, no one bother to help me
except a malay guy
he heard me
and turn back to ask if i wanna change seat
but i told him im afraid he wuld follow
and he said i culd sit beside him
ended up,
i didnt
i move to the seat behind him
next,
he asked me wat happen
and seems like his fren,
whom was not on board e bus
also sense that sth was going to happen
cuz he was on the phone wif someone
and was toking abt my case
he asked where i stayed
and i think i gave him a silly answer
is like duh...
e bus onli goes to clementi
hahas
so he asked me which block
and said he wuld alight wif me if he follows
it wun trouble him as he leaves juz a few streets away
omtian,
his that sentence touched me sia
and soon,
it was my stop to alight
so i get down e bus asap
and e guy did alight wif me
and when i looked back,
e old man was getting down oso
so i faster cross e road without bidding goodbye to e guy as he was on the phone
while cross-ing e road,
i kept looking back
and i think he sort of bidded bye to me
culdnt reallie see clearly cuz i wasnt wearing my specs
come to think of it,
i think i was rather rude
cuz i didnt thank him fer the help
but everything was too sudden
all i culd think of was to get home asap
i know he wun read it
but i still wan to express my graditude to him
hope he will be able to feel it

at least now i know there's still someone kind living in this area...
=))

2008-11-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

27/11/08
will be one of the days i hate most!
everything dun seems to go my way today!
roar!

2008-11-27T08:00:00.001+08:00

it's my 300th post!
and i noe im missing out a lot of things

1) FLH
2) Energy
3) Wedding Dinner

lolz
acutally,
it's juz a FEW onli
hahahahhahas

2008-11-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

i sense a change
do you..?

i sense a drift...
do you..?

我怀念的
是无话不说。。。

2008-11-11T00:19:00.004+08:00

wanted to blog abt sth happy
but juz realise i dun have anything happy to blog
sighh~

i think i caught e emo germs spreading in SCC
and im now back to my emo period
my feelings are juz like a roller-coaster
it has past its highest peak
and now returning to its low peak

anyway,
spent some time on sat fer i&e
chose e templates and draw some onto e bottles
blog fer it will be up soon..
=))

2008-11-08T23:13:00.002+08:00

im sorry
i didnt mean those things i said

im sorry
i juz needed some time alone

im sorry
i noe u're juz concerned abt me

im sorry
if i've hurt u

im sorry...

2008-11-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

nightmare is finally over
no big mistakes made
but i forget e 'kiang kiang'
arghh~

that's e part im most confident abt
and yet i forgot it
haiz...

specially wore my owl necklace dat day
cuz someone likes owl
so owl represents someone
i believe that someone will bless me during e performance
and e thought of that reallie did calm me down
heex

i noe it's silly of me to think that way
but i enjoyed being silly..
=PP

2008-10-29T16:32:00.001+08:00

one and a half hr more and it will be my doom time
seriously,
i have no confidence fer this performance
they kip saying juz relax and have fun
but how to when i have alrdy thrown my face once..?
i dun wan a 2nd time
i seriously dun wan it!
arghh~

2008-10-28T09:52:00.003+08:00

ton-ed over at clubhse on sat

reached sch at ard 2plus and started practicing fer e song
went fer dinner afta that at alumini and back to more practice
until 11 plus b4 we stopped everything and settled down fer e nite
watched e ghost game
a thai horro movie
which i hate e ending
cuz everyone died!
except fer e crazy one..?
hahas

they started on e 2nd movie
scary movie 3
which i cant catch i thing
so i gave up and went to slp
slping on e sofa is so comfi wif a bear bear to hug
heex.. ^.^

ordered mac delivery fer breakfast and i went home to bathe afta that
went back sch again fer more practice frm 6 to 8
rushed home afta that fer SHA

randoms thoughts...
this is e first time im practicing so much fer a song
and this is e 1st time im offically performing using drums
e more i practice,
e more pressure im giving myself
e pressure to do even better
e pressure not to embarrassed myself again
and e more i practice
e more i hope it will make thru e audition fer concert
it's time i worked real hard fer my fill or rather 'feel'-in

2008-10-28T09:34:00.002+08:00

wenta watch SHA Jian mian hui at causeway pt on fri
rushed there afta sch
so reached at ard 6
was quite in front i suppose
compared to wanting and fun
hahahhahahas
but kinda suay,
cuz stand behind 2 wu jia hui's fans
and they kip raising their purple board
which block my camera view!
roar!

wenta eat bk afta that
shldnt have upsize it
frm 4.50 to 5.60
*faints*

photo shall be uploaded when i upload it into my com
=))

2008-10-21T13:55:00.002+08:00

2nd week 2nd day of sch
and im feeling so tired alrdy
sch is so not fun wif all the boring lectures and tutorials

but i like my IS teacher!
she's veri pretty
not onli on e outside
but in e inside too
heex
and she's veri nice
first week was chocolate
second week was pringles
wonder wats next
heex
mon will nvr be blue again wif her ard
=))

sunday was bboy
and i dun enjoyed it as much as b4
cuz of e cypher
wif all e eyes staring at u
it's juz e feeling which i hate most
sighh~

and now
i reallie hafta work hard on my drums le
one more week plus and im going to perform it
i dun wan to throw my face again
haiz...

2008-10-19T02:17:00.005+08:00

went fer my cousin wedding last friday

and i shall let e photos do e talking..

=))

and this shall be a reward fer those who have been reading my blog
dun think u will be able to see me wearing this kinda dressing elsewhere
=))

2008-10-19T02:17:00.001+08:00

shall update more abt TA04 chalet once i get e photos.. =))

2008-10-13T15:46:00.007+08:00

2 consecutive chalets is not as fun as i thought

is so tiring!

lolz!

6, 7, 8

was SCC chalet

work SEAB b4 that

so i didnt meet them fer lunch

and this is wat we played when we get bored.. =DD

e 6 of us.. =))

went to look fer them afta that
by bus!
bus no. 5!
hahas
cuz i wasnt in a good mood
was kinda piss off by sth
lolz
and ended up,
e journey took ard 1 and a half hr
and ken kip laughing me fer this
boo..!

and guess wat
i finally had a home or rather, chalet-cooked meal afta dunno how long
yippee~!
hahas
thanks ben fer e haianese chicken rice
it was deliciously sumptious
yum yum~!
heex
KO at ard 2 plus
was e first to slp
hahas
too tired le

Chicken!
Veggie!
chalet-cooked dinner fer day 1!
ben ( our chef ) and ah ken

Day 2
we woke up at dunno wat time and headed fer breakfast tgt
shinru and i had mac
while e others ate at kopitam
hahas
left them afta that
cuz i went back to sch intending to give someone a bdae surprise
but ended up,
he surprised me instead
cuz he left sch le
if onli i didnt dily darly
and reached sch at 1plus as i planned
sighh~

beautiful flower..

at nite,
it was bbq time!
whee~!

chicken wings!

mini jamming
chef and assist chef!

while e rest slack inside and played murderer.. =XX

woke up early e next morning
cuz wanna catch sunrise
and our alarm tone became a mini concert
hahas
cuz chienwen alarm started ringing first at ard 4.45
which was f.i.r yue ya wan
then shinru's was next
being jay chou's song
and last but not least
it was mine!
yuzhong's yuan yuan!
heex
i woke up when it first rang
but seeing everyone still aslp
so i went back to slp again
opps!
and e next time i woke up
it was alrdy 6 le
which means our alarms rang fer an hr like that
causing xueting not able to fall aslp
opps!
but in e end,
no sunrise was seen
=((

and we headed off to mac to have breakfast afta that
hotcakes!
yum yum~! =DD

does it remind u of a game..? heex

Went back to e chalet and took a short nap
B4 packing up and leaving e place
Oh ya!
I know how to ride a couple bike!
Hahas
But im still very unstable at times
So my journey wif shinru was filled wif a bit screamings along e way
Heex
Wanted to head home afta that
But was dragged to seoul garden
Wenta play arcade b4 that
Basketball!
It was fun!
=DD
And so,
My 2nd visit to seoul garden was given to scc peeps
Heex
This time round,
It was more worth cuz I cooked a lot of meat to eat!
Unlike e first time when I went
Heex
So we ate fer ard 2 hrs b4 mrt-ed home
And during e ride,
He called me!
Ahhhhhhh~
Reached home at ard 7 I think
Then I forget wat I did le
So end of entry!
^^

2008-10-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

wenta kbox on thurs
manage to sing a few songs
but i suppose i wasnt in a correct mood that day
was feeling kinda down afta singing yuan yuan
fer dunno wat reason
and it kinda affected my whole day mood
lolz

wenta cut my hair afta that
i miss my fringe!
=((

2008-10-05T16:16:00.002+08:00

finally,
end of weekends torture
hahas
dun hafta wake up so early on sat and sun anymore
plus,
i get to watch my pokemon!
heex..

2008-10-04T23:29:00.006+08:00

here to fill up e entries which i missed out
=))

Daiso Stocktake

writer again

hahas

it's fun

when u have a grp of fun ppl

=DD

and i broke e record

of having e most counters

hahas

started off wif 4

then they added one more

and lastly ended up wif 6 fer a period of time

then when 2 of them shouted e no. at e same time

i juz gave them a 'huh'

lolz!

and my virgo subway was given to hui2 and xf

at vivo

now i finally noe how to order subway

hahahahaas

was a counter fer less than half an hr at ps overnight stocktake

and counting was fun!

heex

took a pic wif tomioka afta work

he's so cute!

ahahahahahas..

XDD

was drenched in e rain while searching fer mac

yea, wo zai lin yu zhong~

hahahahahhas

bused home and slpt until aftanoon

My first Subway meal.. =PP

Me and hui2
Cookie!
Me and Tomioka =))
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IS Enrollment

wanted to go events and management
but ended up wif entruprenuer
hope i will have fun selling things
lolz

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Soul gathering

rushed down wif xf afta bboy to e chalet
had curry puff and cake there
and i fed e little kitty wif some of my curry puff
heex
ton-ed e nite there
while xf cabbed home
and sth happened
bed crashed again
hahas
photos time!

Awi

Justis

Awi and Justis

Andy

Andy emo-ing.. =X Angeline, Liling, XF, HY

Andy

Grp Photo.. =))

2008-10-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

bought my schedule book!
whee~!
hahahahas
it's snoopy without woodstock
wanted to buy chip and dale de
but it wasnt that nice
so yea..
hahahahas
im so happy!
at least now i have sth to improve my memory..?
lalala~
XDD

worked at SEAB again
it was.........
boring!
lolz
cuz i dunno wat to do there
everything was so messy
sighh~

2008-10-02T04:48:00.004+08:00

wenta jb on tues
it's been quite a while since i last went
=))

ate at e hongkong cafe
and there's this cup of milk tea which is super duper big
hahas
is specially fer bdae boy or gal
seems so fun
doubt i wuld ever have e chance to get it
sighh~

walked ard as usual
and i finally found a ring which i like!
heex
sometimes,
i do like my fingers
cuz they are almost of e same size
which means i can wear e ring on any fingers that i like except fer e little finger
heex

and there's a uncle that's reallie scary
he asked fer my no. and even wanted to treat me dinner
lolz

one thing learnt,
e way one dressed reallie makes a diff

2008-10-02T04:36:00.002+08:00

went out wif tecky, singchun and peisin on sun
it's been a long while since i last saw them
and we are all doing fine i suppose
heex
wenta cine and book a room at e highest floor
and yea, some memories came back
rent e movie ' the number 23 ' and watch
overall,
it was nt bad
like e suspense and all those
hahas
and there was a dunno wat test at e end
end up,
i am no. 9, the Humanitarian
dunno reallie noe wat does that mean
hahahas
but it did says that 9 belongs to more creativity
which quite match my horoscope too..?
heex
and i calculated fer yuzhong too
which turns out to be a 3!
they say that 3 6 9 are a match!
which means we are a match!
ahahahahahhahas!
=DD

went fer dance afta that
and this time,
i injured my right thumb
gg

2008-09-29T01:52:00.003+08:00

selected the blog skin which i wanna change into
shall change it ~~tmr~~
it will be e last day im using this skin
kinda she bu de
it's been wif me fer long
if not fer those complaints,
i dun think i will even think of changing it
hahas

anyway,
juz a reminder to myself
e entries that im lagging behind
1) Soul gathering
2) IS enrollment
3) Daiso Stocktake
4) Derrick the ice-cream boy
5) Derrick's bdae party

O.o
that's a lot of entries...
=XX

2008-09-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

off to work midnight at ps daiso~
jiayou!

2008-09-25T15:43:00.002+08:00

sat went fer dance bbq
at east coast
was feeling kinda odd there
cuz i didnt reallie noe anyone there
xf n hh was late due to work
so yea,
juz sat there,
and help out a bit ard e fire
e food there was nice..?
hahas
there's chicken chop, prawn, stingray, otah, satay, hotdog, crabstick, baccon, chicken wing, marshmellows, fried rice and cheesy octopus ball
and everyone hafta pay 15dollars fer all these

and i ton e nite there
cuz was feeling a bit lazy to go home
hahas
learnt a bit of salsa
erm...
it was kinda awkward to be learning it in e middle of e park..?
hahas
then we walk to e mac there
and things start to get boring when we cant decide where to go or wat to do
in e end,
we slack at mac till morning b4 taking bus home
hahas
finally had someone to accompany on e bus trip home
which means i can slp without worries
cuz there will be someone to wake me up
heex
=PP

2008-09-25T15:39:00.003+08:00

thurs and fri work at daiso was kinda slack
hahahas

was dump at e jap department on thurs to arrange e books there
so i took my time and arrange all e way till lunch time
heex
then was asked to tidy up e baskets
argh...
that's e thing i hate most
it juz give me a big headache doing that
dun even noe how to start off with
=|
and my last one and a half hrs was spent on returning e misplaced items
hahas

friday was kinda slack too
forget wat i did le
hahas
onli rmbed that there was a period of time when they called all of us to e plastic dept and helped out
whoo~
plastic,
i like e things there
esp e storage box
hahas
i think i nid tons of it to kip my room tidy
opps..! =XX

2008-09-18T00:11:00.025+08:00

phew~
finally finish updating all e events le
except fer one
cuz lazy to upload e photos now
heex

my left waist is hurting again
injured it when i was trying out baby freeze on tues
but waited all e way until sun b4 i visit e chinese doc
cuz i tot it will recover by itself
wat a wishful thought
hahahas
and i suppose e head stand did some damage to it again..?
cuz e pain is coming back
booo~

and i think e doc gave me a xie yao!
lolz!
cuz he ask me if i pass motion often
then i sae ard 4 to 5 days once
and ended up,
he gave me 2 packets plus one bottle of med
3 times a day
but i onli eat twice
cuz lazy bring to work
and i doubt i will ever bring it out
heex
cuz i nid honey to survive!
oh my tian,
e med is so bitter!
ahhhh~
and i nida drink 20ml each time
*faints*
but e clever me survived by preparing a teaspoon of honey b4 drinking e med
heex
=PP

oh ya,
toking abt e 2 packets of med
i suspect one is posionous
LOL
cuz ever since i've started eating e med
i've been making 'choco cake' every single day
sometimes even twice a day
which broke my record le
lolz!
my stomach feels weird everytime i finish a meal
and i dun like this
esp when im working!

ahhhh~
someone pls pass me an anti xie yao!

2008-09-18T00:11:00.022+08:00

and im back to daiso
as of mon 15 sept
and all that saying of not going back again
sighh~

it wasnt that fun this time
cuz we didnt bond at all
unlike last time
lolz

but work there is still......
hahas
refer to my previous dunno how many entry to find out
XDD

and a slack day today fer me
=))
was arranging e books frm 1030 to 1300
had omelette fried rice wif fillet fer lunch
back to arranging books afta that
until Mar brought me a box of basket fer me to display
and i hate arranging basket!
and my last one and a half hr was spent putting e items back to its original place
lolz!

hopefully tmr will be slack as well
heex

2008-09-18T00:11:00.020+08:00

went fer a short bboy lesson today
and we tried head-stand
lolz!

we place a packet of tissue on e floor
and put our head on it
but it still hurts!
hahas

- bounce bounce bounce -

2008-09-18T00:11:00.017+08:00

gpa dropped
=((

2008-09-18T00:11:00.015+08:00

had my first bboy lesson on sun
it was fun!
woots~!

been looking forward to it fer a veri long time
heex

things learnt:
Baby freeze - still cant manage to freeze, but soon!
6 steps - hmmmm...
8 ball - sighh~
chair - faints

hahahhas
i nid more time to practice them!

2008-09-18T00:11:00.014+08:00

finally
night cycling is over
let's not mention e bad thing
but yuzhong didnt bless me again!
cuz it rained when we were juz at esplande
hahahhas

so we hide under e shelter and played some game
which include trust fall
a game which i had play b4 during my pri sch camp
it was scary man!
hahahas
i hafta fall frm a height and land on their arms
but e fun part was when they throw me all e way to e back
hahhahahas

another game was H2O
which is a veri high game
but playing at a dark place..?
nonono
cuz accidents happened

cycled all e way back to east coast afta e rain stop
so in e end,
we didnt play any of e games planned
=((

bused back to clementi afta that
then wenta teach tuition
and i almost dozed off when he was doing his work
opps! =XX
KO once i reach home
all e way till nite time
then i wake up and eat e nasi lemak
e rice was nice
hahahahas
XDD

2008-09-18T00:11:00.011+08:00

2008-09-18T00:11:00.005+08:00

worked at seab on last tues
all i can say is work there is reallie slack
reallie easy money
heex
=PP

and nite time,
yuzhong was on 'du shi da fa xian'!
hahahhas
he's so cute!
*melt*
=PP

and this was wat he said in e show
when he entered e deserted building
'zhe shi wo di yi ci lai zhe ge di fang, wo yao zai zhe li zao chuang zuo de ling gan'
translate!
this is my first time coming to this kind of place, i wanna find inspiration to compose song here
e moment i heard this,
*faints*
imagine him coming up wif eerie eerie song in his next album
lolz!

<3 yuzhong!

2008-09-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

Day 2
wenta pom pom at cheers de toilet
so torturing!
cuz no hot water
hahahahas
took quite a while b4 i dare to let e cold water touch me
XDD

collected brunch afta dat
it was yummy!
hahahas
rice with potatoes, chicken and eggies!
definitely one dat will make my day
heex

slack ard afta that wif e freshies
we played e 'tap tap' game
hahas
one of my fav game!
missed e time when me,hui2,xf and eug play tgt
heex
and e forfeits e freshies had
it was hilarious
reallie can laugh dao...
hahahas

had mp afta that
gary's song was nice
esp e jap part
though i dun catch anything
but yea,
it was nice!
hahahaas

prepared fer bbq afta that
me and jiayi stayed at e 'kiss me'
played e swing b4 we wish e big big tub
hahahas
we were like looking ard fer tap but culdnt find it
so we scissors paper stone and decide which toilet to go into
end up i lost
hahas
but as i was abt to enter,
i saw a notice on e wall
which tell us got a washing area!
phew~
lolz!

not reallie full afta e bbq
though i got eat a bit of everything
hahahas
e fried rice, bee hoon, hotdog, satay, stingray, otah, chicken wing
and not forgetting
crabstick!
hahahahas
that's e most i eat
cuz i stand there and open e packets wif help frm others
plus,
i station at e 'peng' area and tell them that belongs to me
wahahhaahhas
crab stick!
yum yum!

and im not an evil person!
heex
it's juz that a freshie so happen ask an otah frm me
so i pass an empty one to kent
typical me!
=PP
and it so happen that i walk away afta that
hahahahhas

but 'lin yu zhong' came to visit us halfway
hahhahahahas
so we hafta carried on wif e bbq-ing inside e shelter
and i open e marshmallow to eat
though it will taste beta if a bit melted
heex

baby-sitted e freshies while e rest planned fer e nite walk
first time i walking nite walk sia!
my virgo nite walk xian gei scc le!
hahahahahas
waited fer a veri long time b4 it was mine and ben's turn
and i like mandy's style of massage-ing..?
hahas
it was so comfortable!
=DD

and lucky i have ben wif me!
making nite walk not that scary!
hahahas
and fun was funny!
popping out frm e plants singing dunno wat song
lolz!
but huiting and shaoxun's station did scare us
they suddenly pop out e white mask
but they mis-estimate e timing!
hahahhaas
me and ben were still at quite a dist away frm e clues
cuz we didnt dare to go in!
lolz!

but e toilet part was funny
caught up wif steve, johnny, tiff and i forget who le
hahahhas
then we were suppose to choose between 2 doors which represent e baddie
and we all kick e door to open it
lolz
dunno if e ppl inside got xia dao anot
hahahhaas

everything ended at ard 6plus to 7
and by e time we bathed finish
alrdy tian liang le
lolz
wenta slp afta that
until dunno wat time
then we wenta alumni to mum mum
afta that went back to slp again
hahahahas
and to end e camp
we had spring-cleaning of clubhse
it was so dusty!
and dirty!
lolz
imagine i was there almost every wed
to breathe in all e dust
eeeee~
hahahahhas

culdnt decide wat to eat afta that
so i ended up going home to cook bei bei mian to eat
=))

~end of scc camp~

2008-09-09T03:05:00.002+08:00

end of scc camp~!
hahahahhas

enjoyed this year camp
hahas
cant do any comparision to last yr's one cuz i missed it
so yea,
camp to me was fun!
heex

but honestly,
i wuld rather be a freshie and go fer e camp with e tots of fun fun and more fun
rather than being a camp comm that hafta plan so many thing fer it
haiz
i think im rather a bad camp comm
cant even plan e bbq stuffs right
everyone was suppose to have 2 bbq chicken wings
and at least one of every food kind
but not everyone of them manage to have it
haiz
next time,
we shld go fer e quantity rather than e quality of food
at least ppl will have more to eat
sighh~

anyway,
first day of camp
woke up at ard 7 to pack my bag
hahahhahas
last min packing again
so typical of me
opps! =XX
manage to rush to sch at 9
slack ard and had a light breakfast while waiting fer e freshie to reach
went up to e bunk at 11plus and had some games
hahas
and a typical game to start wif
so that we will noe other ppl's name
and phew,
i was e no. 7 or 8 in e circle
so nt much names to rmb when it reach my turn
heex
and e forfeit was so jing dian
wif gary oso wanting them to touch their nipple
LOL

and next game,
was e 'guess e person behind e screen' game..?
hahas
dunno e game name
anyhow named it
heex

and last but not least,
e animal game
lolz
like this game best
cuz it was fun!
hahahahhas
blind-folded ourselves
and we were scattered ard e bunk
then we were suppose to make an animal sound
to find e rest of e grp mate
hahas
first animal i kana was a fish
and e fish sound was like 'blub'
which remind me of a joke
wat is e colour of e sea..?
it's blue!
cuz e fish goes 'blub' (blue)
hahahahas
being lame here
lolz
then e 2nd animal i got was a giraffe
which goes 'arm'
e sound of it eating
hahas
this was tough
cuz there were more grps which equal to fewer member in each grp
a great test to my hearing!
lolz
i walked a few steps in front when i suddenly heard another 'arm' behind my back
so i turn back then i heard it somewhere else again
finally found someone afta turning a few rounds
hahahahas
and that someone happen to be dixon
and his hand is big!
LOL
but his encounter wif steve is very funny
e way they 'arm arm arm' to acknowledge each other is classic
kip laughing when i think abt it
hahas

was lunch afta that
followed by a workshop
where there were 4 stations fer us to rotate ard
namely guitar, vocal, bass and drums
learnt some stuffs at some of e stations
hahas
and then,
it was dinner
dinner was yummy!
there's rice (duh! hahas)
cabbage, fish and 2 drumsticks
hahahas

had a song composing talk afta that
was useful to me
defintely
but whether i will be able to apply it
it's still a qns
sighh~

talentime game afta that
chose not to participate in it
haahhahahas
they were asked to dress one in every grp in bikinis
using trash bags, straws and cups
and obviously,
e cups were used fer e cups
hahahahas
3 most classic ones were shaoxun, fun and steve(freshie)
lolz
shall post their pics up when i asked frm winston
heex

pei e freshie to their slping area afta that
which is blk 72 rm 11-13
slack ard there cuz i wasnt allowed in e clubhse
booo~
but i slpt on e table at ard 1 plus
afta they end their meeting
was suppose to wake up at 3 to pom pom and do night watch
but chienwen woke me up at dunno wat time and tell me dun nid le
so i wenta brush my teeth and went back to slp
hahas
ben put his head on my body when he slp
then he sae halfway i will turn away then his head will drop
then will he slp on e table that table,
i will turn back and squash his head
ahahahahas
i laughed loudly when i heard this
i can still toss ard when e table is kinda narrow
lolz!
but it was veri cold in there
one blanket wasnt enuff to kip me warm
so went out and slp at e table at dunno wat time
is so much beta slping there
hahahas

okie,
end of day one
and is time fer me to slp!
lolz
all thanks to my bro
fer forcing me to drink e coffee
which kept me awake until now
grrr!

2008-09-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

wenta watch murder of e inugari clan
aka kindaichi
hahahas
but e kindaichi was a old one
cuz it was featuring his grandpa

overall,
to me,
e movie was a bit too draggy le
hahahhas
lasted fer 2hrs plus
but it wasnt that boring
as edward had complained
he even fall aslp during e show
lolz!
there was laughter and funny scenes along e way
but it's definetely not beta than e tv version
hahahas
and e ending was ya,
kinda disappointed
cuz is like it was not reallie solved by kindaichi
rather,
e murderer admitted to e crime
so yea,
but e way e bodies was found is still kinda creepy
hahahhahas

and and
i saw yuzhong while walking past kbox!
ahhhh~
was in a rush to go inside e cinema when i saw yuzhong's interview on e kbox tv
ahhhh~
followed by that was yuan yuan mv
i so wanted to stay there and watch it!
all i can say is reallie you yuan wu fen
cuz afta e movie,
i went back and waited
that's jj, nan quan ma ma, wu jia hui
but NO yuzhong
ahhhh~~
so disappointed..
T.T

2008-09-03T00:29:00.002+08:00

brought forward my tuition on sunday
cuz i had sth on afta that
which is derrick's dance tutorial
lolz
i was early de!
but then cuz i went clubhse to slack
end up,
i went in late
lolz
then he asked me,
tong xue, wei shen me chi dao
hahas

anyway,
e dance tutorial was fun
hahas
cuz e way he teach is
yea, fun
a lot of laughters along e way
hahahas

wenta slack at e staircase afta that
cuz culdnt enter e clubhse
becuz of him
lolz
then i bei ta xia dao when he was leaving
was abt to stand up when he suddenly pop out frm e side and said
hello, byebye
i was stunned
and i juz looked at him
hahas

so went inside afta dat
and played wif e drums
winston!
i wan my drum lessons!
lolz
practice a bit of my off-beat
then i tried figuring e drum fer yuan yuan
ahahahahhahaas
is so diff!
esp e fill-in part
culdnt catch it
i need help!
hahahhas

played all e way till 4plus then headed off to suntec
fer e comex fair
stupid brother
was suppose to meet at 5plus
guess wat time he reach..?
7!
roar!
so meanwhile i walk ard e place searching fer my external hard disk
alone
yes, ALONE!
hahas
am i mad juz becuz i went there alone..?
lolz
it was so squeezy
and i hate it
e feeling of ren ji ren
but at least,
i manage to buy my hard disk
now i can finally do my back-up le
hahahhahas

bought choco chip cream frm starbucks afta that
hahas
had my first one during e IT fair last one
it was a treat frm zhuzhu
luv it since then
but was feeling kinda guilty afta drinking it
lolz
cuz of 2 reasons
which shall be kept unknown to u all
hahahhas

2008-09-02T04:55:00.000+08:00

changed my blog song
at last
=))

2008-09-02T03:28:00.002+08:00

Saturday
kinda last min decision
to go down fer derrick's autograph session
hahas
still rmb e times
when i was in sec 3
when proj superstar was first launch
when i was still frens wif her
when i first enter place called mediacorp
when i first go fer a recording
so many first times
and frens were made
but sadly,
afta 3 yrs
none were in contact le
hahas
im juz so not good at keeping frens
wat can i say..?

anyway,
back to topic
whoo~
derrick grew frm cute to cool le
but he's still as cute
and as he said,
groofy as well
hahas
was so nervous when i went up stage
first time going to an auto alone
as in no one to pei me go up on stage
e walk towards there reallie grew tenser and tenser with every step i take
cuz there's no one beside me to chat wif
scary...
hahahhaas

he performed 3 songs
but my fav song was not inside
hahahas

克罗地亚的天空
reallie like this song among all
e lyrics is touching
cuz is written by marku
hahas
in case u all dunno who he is
he's e keyboardist fer 三月 in superband
e first ever song i heard written by him is 观赏鱼
2 years ago
when zhiwei asked me to his cca concert
and that's e song i love most frm that concert
simply because of its lyrics and melody
missed his song last yr cuz i was at e backstage
did anyone recorded it..?
plus send it to me
heex

so yea,
introducing to u all
Croatia Sky
克罗地亚的天空

Croatia Sky - Derrick Hoh 何维健

后院的蒲公英逐渐失去笑容
我始终不懂浇多少水才够
没有你的屋子变得好残旧
失去制造新记忆的渴求

有张明信片你一直不肯丢
常对着它发呆好久
一座心形岛屿在蔚蓝海中
美丽得让你爱不释手

于是我拼了命的搜索
找寻那座岛屿的下落
唯一对你许下的承诺
就是要牵着你的手
漫步在你梦想中的天国

白色的蒲公英带着梦
散落在我深爱你的天空
像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风
温热的气候不会有寒冬

我用力的握着你的手
翱翔在通往幸福的天空
这景象一直都是你梦寐以求
牵着手我们一起签收

好不容易真的有线索
在亚得里亚海某个角落
带着你飞过半个地球
奔向你梦想的出口
你的声音却越来越微弱

我只需要多一分钟
给你最后一次感动
你的呼吸却变沉重

白色的蒲公英带着梦
散落在克罗地亚的天空
像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风
温热的气候心忍受着寒冬

我用力的握着你的手
翱翔在没有幸福的天空
这景象一直都是你梦寐以求
却只剩我代替你签收
多希望你能张开双眸

2008-08-30T01:26:00.003+08:00

back frm a shopping spree~!
at jb
hahahahhas
im a bit addicted to going there
XDD

this time,
bought quite a no. of things fer myself
which include,
3 shirts
and
1 cap
hahahahas
there's still more which i wan to buy
like sandals, bao xie, shoes
and many many more
XDD

in addition,
watched money not enuff 2 there
hahahas
e cinema there is
cold cold cold
but overall,
e movie is not bad
yea,
and i cried,
twice
lolz
first time was when e mother was brought to e old folks home
and second time was when e mother xi shen zi ji
tried holding my tears back
but failed
onli manage to control it at e scene where e mother fainted at e police station
sighh~

and and
i've finally eaten e meal which i wanted
heex
is yum yum yum
and i tried e mac spicy there
a bit diff frm sg de
in e sense of e bread and e chicken
a bit hard hard de
hahas

spent quite a lot there
ard RM150
which is SGD70+++
a bit heart pain
lolz
haven find any job during e holi but alrdy spent so much le
how am i going to last thru..?
=((